Feelings...

God, I know that the title sounds so edgy and emo or whatever, but I'm not good with this blogging thing. So whatever.

I've been replaying Class of 09' and... god, it just feels like a perfect representation of how High-School is in real life. Probably because it is. I keep thinking about the characters, the story, everything… and to be honest, it makes me more bitter and hateful towards literally everything. Not because of them, but the perspectives they provide I guess? Not a day goes by, I think about everything that's wrong with me, from body stuff to the mental illnesses in my head.

Ever since my mom died 2 years ago… Everything's been so horrible. In some ways, I feel just like Nicole. Only I don't have the privilege of... something. Sometimes, I don't want to... be me. Sometimes, I just wanna hide away and put on a persona that is just Nicole or Emily from the game. Because I think... if I show my true face, I'll be hurt. I dunno, just spitting words out and hoping they stick or make sense.

I really want to cry...

I miss you, mom.