Lonely

Yesterday, last night, I came to the realization that I haven't interacted with many people, only best friend and that's about it. The loneliness hit me hard last night and I almost felt triggered something that I could've regretted. I ended up putting temporary tattoos and drawing with an eyeliner on my arm to help the thoughts. I admit that I have been lonely and I don't trust many people because I'm scared that I might stress too much that I forget to take care of myself. It happened a month ago, me and this one person liked each other but things didn't go as plan. My point is that I let myself process things and feel less stress but at the same time, I isolated myself that I stopped texting a few people who were curious upon my life and now I'm here. I guess.. what I am saying is that if you're probably going through the same thing, it's nothing to feel ashamed but just know that there's people out there who might be curious on how you're doing and probably don't want to reach until you're ready. So, make sure to keep the people you care updated and ask how they're doing because you never really know what's going in their life as well. Take the time to share how you've been feeling instead of bottling it up because I'm sure they want to be there for you too :). If anyone needs someone.. or want someone to speak to... I'm here, I don't want anyone of you guys who might be going through the same thing, that you're alone because you're not. Life gets tough but it doesn't mean it will stay like this forever, okay? Remind yourself why you're still here or even find the silliest reason why you should continue until you find bigger reasons. Take care and remember, I love you <3.