a little bit from my life again

I can't say that there's a lot going on in my life right now and thank fucking God I'm already tired of all this bullshit). The only thing is that I'm arguing with my parents and girlfriend again and I hate myself for hurting others, but it's kind of a habit. I'd really like to stop hurting the feelings of loved ones and I'm trying, but I'm not trying hard enough. 

the dumbest thing is that the scars haven't healed, they're red, I hope they'll soon turn white and become less noticeable 

хочется быть счастливым