alive with the glory of love

19/09/24

missing kids on milk cartons 

i'm leaving everything until the last minute and i'm only putting effort in to the minimal things. what can i do? i can't change but i can. i won't 

i'm getting sick of myself in terms of school but also, i'm feeling more myself lately. i've always had a pretty good idea of who i am and who i want to be. recently i'm feeling a little more like who i want to be. it's lonely but not for long 

watch me rip myself apart 

all that he wants is to see someone he respects without their clothes

i'm going to have to tell him what's going to happen. he'll be fine. he won't show that he cares and i'll hope that means he won't care. i don't think he'll care but maybe i'm more naive than i previously thought 

things are getting slightly more real and i'm not as scared as i thought i'd be. 

and it's nice to call you 

it's nice to your voice again, i've waited all day long 

roles reversed, come on and have your way with me 

if i do this, i want it to be good. otherwise it's not worth it 

there's a dent in the bone of the bridge of my nose but my skin does not show it

you can only feel it 

and you said that compliance was just a casualty of cause and effect 

i'm making art but it's not good enough and i don't know what's missing cause it's all of me and i can't give more than that 

what do they expect? they expect hollowness 

hope you're all ok

yours, miss black eyeliner