Strange Feeling, looking for opinions

I don't even know wich category to put this in-

I have some problems talking about this but I'll try. I've been feeling weird lately, maybe for a couple months now, where I feel like I wanna express something, maybe write something, but I don't know what it is. It's hard to describe, even trying to think about it know, I don't understand how to put it so other people can get how I feel.

I feel like writing, but then I can't ...? But I want to create something, but I don't know what, or how, or where...

I feel like I want other people to live an experience similar to my feeling, trough something maybe with dark tones... dark but welcoming ones, like a horror game that makes you feel nostalgic or at home. Something like what those old survival horror would make you feel with their characters and setting, but I don't know if I can achieve that just writing a story. Maybe I need visual and sound elements to really set the tone.

Sounds like a whole lot of nothing, but it feels like something big inside. Every night when I go to sleep, I sleep feeling like another day passed with that thing in particular not seeing the world. It's starting to annoy me. Maybe it sounds weird, and I don't know if I'll update this, but I guess talking about it does help a little.

So, have you felt something similar? can you relate to some degree? I would love to hear you. and thank you for reading.