TEC16, ep4: BEING ALONE vs. BEING LONELY

ive never quite been able to tell the difference

what is it about being alone in a public place that makes you feel a bit lonely even if you actually arent?

like sitting in a cafe by myself during free period sipping my coffee while my friend goes back home just until the next lesson? 

everyone else is sat with a couple of friends, talking

except me

i move over to a bigger table in the shadow (bc its still so fuckin HOT) and almost immediately feel like im taking up unnecessary space

y'know being on the internet has made me believe that the majority of people are introverts when its actually literally the opposite

and that pressure i put on myself

to be as social and extroverted as other ppl my age

when im just not

and so i feel burned out and end up isolating myself more

...

maybe that's what makes me feel lonely.

my own insecurity.

(super big revelation i know)