I fucking hate being scene

why is it so fucking hard and expensive?! my hair literally never listens to me. I dyed it black yet it still looks brown and every time I style it it goes back to flat and stick and curly in like one second. not to mention if you don't look a specific way your basically isolated from the community. like I've never seen a non conventionally attractive scene girl which makes me feel like actually shit. as a ugly girl or atleast not attractive girl I really feel out of place in the community.