religion

to preface this, i love my religion and i 100% believe in it and i intend ti keep it that way.

Anyhow, no matter how much i love my religion i feel somewhat miserable in it. 

even though im kinda proud i did, i had to give up all the things i loved and was good at. I gave up music and instruments even though i was good at guitar and i gave up at art even though i made so much improvement that i was able to take an approach on semi-realistic art. 

Giving up all my passions and stress relievers has caused me to feel so down in the dumps and miserable. When im sad i cant listen to music when i need to think i cant draw.

I cant even celebrate birthdays. I hate to admit it but i adore presents so not recieving some attention adn presents has also made me sad.

I feel like i cant relate with my peers all they do is gossip and talk about music which are totally agaisnt my religion.

I hate the fact that i constantly fear for the day of judgement to the point i experience mild depressive episodes

I sometimes wish the right path was a little more pleasurable.

I still love my religion and will continue to follow it. 💞