my interests and some ranting and whatnot

basically i just remembered blogs existed when i made my last post and that was like 5 minutes ago (at the time im starting to write this) and i feel like going on a small (large) tangent about my interests cuz i like reading other peoples blogs about their interests sometimes

at the moment my main hyperfixations are:

- bungou stray dogs
- persona 5
- danganronpa thh and v3
- my ocs (specfically 2 universes of my ocs since i have quite a few)

i have A LOT of other interests but these are the ones ive been actively thinking about a lot recently, all my old interests (unless i start disliking them which is uncommon) will just go in the brain folder and i will remember them every so often and go insane again but trust i will still be willing to lose my marbles over a character i lost the hyperfix of but still love if you talk to me about them

honestly im probably gonna make a whole post about my ocs sometime soon because i need a place where i can just rant about them without having to worry about boring whoever im talking to (i yap waaay too much abt my ocs or special interests and i can tell my friends dont care abt it usually)

bsd

i used to watch this all the way back in 2021 and 2022 but at the time i was super depressed and also very stupid so a lot of the (REALLY GOOD) writing went straight over my head cuz i was just like "haha dazai me fr i want die" and now that im rewatching and appreciating it more from a writers perspective and as someone really interested in psychology and stuff im realising that damn?? its actually a really interesting story and has a lot of deeper themes that arent talked about in a lot of other media in this way (that ive seen at least.. give me recs in the comments if anyones reading this and has cool media with interesting psychological exploration (or themes at least) and an engaging story)

also i will say this so loudly!! atsushis constant flashbacks and his tendency to cry is absolutely not bad writing and i actually appreciate SO MUCH them showing his trauma more than just something tiny and barely shown please write more people with severe ptsd who ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT THEIR TRAUMA and it isnt just something that pops up occasionally when the story needs it to. gang!! trauma is part of someones entire life of course hes going to remember it!!! i will microwave you if you keep saying atushis trauma is annoying!!!

i could go on a massive rant about bsd but this post will probably be way too long and boring if i do unless there is someone out there in the world who actually wants to hear that

persona 5

i got this game at the end ish of last month at almost the last week of my summer holidays and it completely ruined my plans to do absolutely anything before school started again. within about of week of owning this game on steam i had 80 hrs on it (literally not exaggerating i spent every day just wake up persona 5 sleep repeat). i absolutely love persona 5 (royal specifically) SOOO MUCH and im so annoyed because i havent been able to continue since school started cuz ive been so busy... im right before sending the casino calling card and i wanna KEEP PLAYING BUT I HAVE NO TIMEEE AAHRHG (it has officially, as of today, been 2 weeks since ive last played p5r and i might be a little insane)

im also upset i have no persona 5 friends except one of my friends who used to be a fan but also HATES akechi and akechi is my favouritest silliest little guy to ever!!!! i want to throw him around!!!!

i purchased the game (a key for cheap cough after totally not trying and failing to pirate cough) with absolutely no idea what the plot was about whatsoever (i actually mixed it up with identity v and had to check which was what) but i just wanted it really badly because i loove phantom thieves and gentleman thieves and stuff and i was like "the vibes of this game seem immaculate so i need to play it" and just rolled with whatever happened in it. i was not expecting the fantasy aspect whatsoever i had never even heard of the other persona games. it also meant i had absolutely never gotten a spoiler for it and it was so insanely fun getting into a media where all the plot twists and events were a shocker to me!!! i didnt even have any time to look at art cuz i was playing it so much but in these last 2 weeks where ive had time to see some i have been avoiding spoilers like THE PLAGUE (i have gotten a couple anyways i think.. but i already made a theory before seeing any of it so i might just be twisting what im seeing to fit my theory idfk)

generally i absolutely love pretty much all the characters but akechi holds a special place in my heart, also makoto because shes literally me fr and joker because hes pretty

also the amount of arsène lupin references drives me CRAZY because i love arsène lupin soo much and i need to reread the book of arsène lupin stories i have but i need to finish another book first (im right at the end of crime and punishment still)

danganronpa

my danganronpa interest has been on and off for the last few years i usually get at least a month or 2 of liking it again every year

basically im just really emotionally attached to makoto naegi and ive rewatched the thh anime at least 5 times but i cant remember how many times exactly, and then recently i started playing drv3 since i realised ive never actually.. played any of the games.. or even watched a playthrough. i just got really into the anime and then watched a bunch of summaries about the other 2 games and interacted with the fandom a lot so i knew what happened in every game but i never really knew exactly how it happened or ever got the chance to connect with the characters apart from the fandomized versions..... i do know a lot about the plot and i know all the spoilers though at least, but i never really saw a lot of it in context

somehow not actually having seen or played any of the canon media aside from one 12 episode anime (and the dr3 (future and despair arcs) anime i guess but even that was in the 2nd round of the hyperfix i think) i still got insanely into it and even dressed up as byakuya for halloween AND world book day a couple years back which is fun!

not everything about the writing is perfect i will admit but the concept and a lot of the writing is super interesting and i do enjoy the overall execution (haha) which also makes it the perfect feeding ground for fanganronpa games!!! ages ago (like actual yrs i think) i heard about a fanganronpa game that was still in the first stages of concepts called project: edens garden, and like a month ago i saw it again and theres A WHOLE FIRST CHAPTER NOW?? and i played it and its SO GOOD??? go play project: edens garden right now its so good damon i love you damon my dickhead twink hes so awful awesome! support fanganronpas guys they have such cool writing

ocs

like i said before im gonna use another blog to go on a rant about them because i can say sooo much and this post is already like 3x longer than i was intending (the autism... the autism...) 

however i will put their names and a description here if anyone bothers to read this far and wanted to hear about one or two in particular in a later blog

ive literally never put any of this info of my ocs out to the public like this guys this is soo special and important

> bluerock

this is a joint oc universe i have with a few friends where we all made stupid teenagers and put them in a school together.. its over a year old and im so incredibly emotionally attached to them all and so much has happened

+ nikolas sanders - student who joined the school after spending 2 yrs in california (bluerock highschool is in the north of the usa ish) since he moved from russia at 13 yrs old,, hes a chill and friendly guy who does gardening (and weed) and also somehow pulled the most homophobic guy in school (theyre dating now)

+ lawrencium nobel - nerdy twink asshole who is obsessed with science and literally a kid genius,, hes also decently radioactive... think mad scientist from the 1900s and then scale that down to 5'3", make him ginger and filled with rage, then give him insane catholic guilt for accidentally murdering his only friend

+ callum monroe - slenderman if he was 5'4", cuban, and scene! he knows everyone, is everywhere, and will haunt your dreams forever (he has shown up in my friends dream before). he respawns like Steve Minecraft and lives in every bluerocker's walls, also he has a big homosexual crush on this asshole called owen who realllly hates him (lovingly obviously)

i have about 11 different bluerockers but these 3 are the ones i think about the most often, if i make a blog post about bluerock ill mention the other 8 :3

> detective story i have yet to name

im actually planning on making this into a comic at some point

these were some ocs i made up in 2022 (i was brainrotting over the drv3 phantom thief au) and they were super stupid but since im in another phantom thief and detective (just as a concept honestly) hyperfixation, i decided to redesign and completely rewrite them

this is probably subject to big change since i only decided on most of this in the last few days really

+ isaac durmaz - the detective protagonist of the story, he is 18yrs old and starting a degree in law at university while also working as an apprentice detective with his mum, hes a sweet little fella but can go a bit bonkers over a case, especially a super tough one (like mother like son) ...also he has a massive hallway crush on elizabeth and it makes him too stupid to realise who she really is

+ lucera durmaz - isaac's mum, she is the stereotypical 1950s noir detective smoker doesnt need anyone works solo gruff and brash sorta inspector, except shes a big buff LADY! i love her

+ aurelius/elizabeth gulzar - the thief of the story, they are genderfluid and go to the same university as isaac (18yrs old too) and usually present as elizabeth (fem) at school (hes afab) while usually presenting as aurelius (masc) as the thief, but sometimes it switches up! the gender is not controllable rip! she's the child of 2 rich business owners

theres a whole plot i could explain about this story but i wont put it in this post, stay tuned for the next few posts cuz i will explain the premise of the comic (which im hoping ill get to make but motivation is hard to come by)

gang i wrote way more than i intended to it just feels so nice to be able to wordvomit all of my thoughts into a blog that i know barely anyone is gonna see but it still feels soo good to get it all out and into words especially since im so tired from school and it makes my brain a little (very) incoherent all the time

please comment if you actually read all (or even a bit) of this cuz i would be suuuper happy about it!!! and any critique or advice or suggestions or literally ANYTHING is welcome as long as ur friendly about it this blog is my safe space :3

im excited to write another blog tbh because this doesnt even scratch the surface of my insane autistic ramblings (but im also hungry so it may take a while)