the amount of shit hitting the fan is insane now

sorry i havent updated on the situation, but now my best friend, lets just call her alison for now, SHES TALKING TO MY EX that she KNOWS i still miss. LIKE WHAT?? thats fucking insane. so she was like "well i can put you on with you other crush (lets call him gerald) (who is friends with my ex)" and i was like "sure" so she talked to him abt it and the fat little hoe said "well i dont wanna do that to kevin (my ex)" LIKE WHAT THE FUCK this pisses me off because why do we care sm about kevins feelings when alison LITERALLY STARTED DATING HIM theyre not even thinking about the controversy thats abt to come up. like now i feel like absolut dog shit because alison, the only one in the school that i trust with my life, is dating my ex that SHE KNOWs i'm still in love with. AND FUCKING GERALD IS WORRIED ABOUT KEVIN? im so done with this bs. whhy are we feeling sorry for him when first off, hes a liar and a cheater. second, hes OVER ME NOW. HES NOT GONNA CRY BC HIS FRIEND IS DATING ME. IM FUCKING CRYING BECAUSE THE ONLY PERSON THAT I COULD TALK TO ABOUT MY MH AND PERSONAL LIFE JS BETRAYED ME. im so done with ts ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT