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I don't feel like BPD is talked about enough,, like in a serious way. Everytime i see mention of it, its some weirdo on tiktok saying "i want a bpd obsessive gf!!" and its like they're just watering it down to that. I hate when people do that to any kind of mental illness like watering down autism to just "dumb" or using LITERAL medical terms for normal things && experiences.
On the other side of the spectrum of things I've heard about BPD is that everyone who has it is automatically a monster?? I'm sorry you've had a bad experience with one person who had it, but you cant label a bunch of people you know nothing about as bad people/monsters to not be interacted with because you had one bad experience. It's the same for most mental disorders, its like they're really not taken seriously in this age. I mean they never really were, but now its so watered down and people are making a competition out of it... um hello? real life people are struggling daily with these disorders and were just going to water it down like nothing serious, you're going to SH for no reason just because you saw it on TT?
I feel like this generation is actually ruined && were all just copies of eachother... But anyways back to BPD. I struggle with it a lot, I mean it's good that i can give my loved ones 100% of me and my love && affection, but the moment i put myself into isolation its like im a terrible person,, or so they say.
I only isolate myself to protect other people when im sad/angry/upset, i dont want to split and say something i dont mean... And i dont want to be constantly miserable around other people so isolate myself, but i get called a horrible person for doing that. Even if its just for a couple days, im still hated for it. I dont know why, everytime i try to do something good or try to be there for people / comfort them, they always turn around and see me as some terrible person.
Why is it that i give my all to everyone, my love, affection, attention, care, comfort and even money sometimes, why is it that they turn around and hate me for being me. Why am i seen as such a horrible person if ive tried so hard to be good? The paranoia will make me mad, i contemplate whether im a good person or not and i really dont have a clear answer. I just wish i was normal, with a normal brain, normal parents, normal life, normal self. All i want to do is make friends, because i dont want to be alone anymore, but everyone is so cruel. or maybe im the cruel one, i still dont know.
I dont know why i cant just be treated like a real person, like a human being, i dont know why im seen as the most evil thing ever when i try my best to give my all to everyone.
I just know that BPD is excruciatingly hard to deal with, and I'll never be cured.
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āCosmo!ā
I agree, i think BPD should be talked about more bc its so misunderstood--its not just where someone is happy and then suddenly angry the next, its much more than that. I think people should be more educated on BPD and the struggles people who have BPD go through
I 100% agree, its so misunderstood and villainized, but its a spectrum and it really depends on the person and their trauma. Its a really hard disorder, and the biggest factor people dont seem to understand is that like PTSD, BPD is a trauma induced disorder, and they've gone through things personality, life, and mind altering!! thank you <3
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Springle
oh naw, I was with someone who has BPD and recently they had an episode and had to break me off. I was mad and all that at first cuz they were already trynna break up with me but honestly I am thankful that they really did break up with me that time. I know that most people will not appreciate someone giving them love and affection and then suddenly going away cuz they are not in the right mindspace; but I can bet you that someone out there will be thankful for you doing that, and those are the kind of people you should be with.
its unfortunate you had that experience with them,, im glad they're out of your life before they actually hurt you. Although it was tough, not everyone with BPD is like this, its mostly a spectrum of types, more violent or sensitive... sorry that happened :< !
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