9.14.24 - Trying this out !!

9.14.24

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I really miss having a sort of place just to write down the things that happen during the week, so I'll try this out for a bit with my random thoughts of the day and such (+_+)

★ THE LIBRARY: I really want to try to go the library by myself sometime, and I was really excited to do such until I sort of realized that it wouldn't be as much as a quiet safe haven like I thought it would be. Well, okay, it's gonna be quiet in there no doubt, but you catch my drift. After I heard K■■■ goes there regularly it made me all of a sudden lose interest. There's no current ongoing beef (there never really was in the first place) with K■■■ but just the idea that I'll be around that person doesn't make me feel so good. (・_・;) 

Even so, if I wanted to go, in few months time, shit, even now, I have absolutely no time because of sports. After school I do sports (or more or less watch sports #bench) and once I get home it's too late for me to go. And even if I had time, I usually end up feeling so tired mentally I don't even want to bother. That's become sort of its own problem, actually:

★ MENTALLY TIRED: Man, am I tired lately or WHAT. School drains me like NOTHING ELSE, its ridiculous (｡•́︿•̀｡). ♡H called me after school the other day, and as much as I like talking to her (I mean like, be for real, she's one of my best friends) I kept making excuses to why I couldn't call for longer. "Oh sorry, ♡H, my parents just got home, gotta hang up" even though I knew it was a lie? I get home and it's like my mental battery shuts DOWN. I become that of a zombie. Speaking of zombies (amazing transition ik)... 

★ MINECRAFT MOVIE TRAILER: Wow, I can't stop thinking about how DOGSHIT that Minecraft movie trailer was!! It's too old to be talking about it at this point but man was that BAD. Literally started losing my shit laughing as soon as the fucking sheep showed up... Just the greatest example of corporations taking a piece of video game media they have no understanding of and trying to make it a money maker for the masses!  (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ 

It reminds me a lot of what happened with the FNAF movie, although it's a bit controversial (?). Some people really liked it, mostly because they were just happy a piece of media they enjoyed was now in a different consumable form. Sure, it's always exciting to see something you really enjoy adapted and interpreted a different way for sure. But what is always so disappointing is the way that these movies always miss the point. They don't ever seem to come from a place of sincerity like fans wish they would. Well, that's usually the point, just to make money, but when it's a piece of media that has a long and dedicated fanbase? You should almost have a certain responsibility to try to appeal that community (the community which built up piece of media in the first place yk?) (~￣³￣)~ 

This is a bit rambly, I just hope the Minecraft Movie gets ratioed so hard they are forced to (reluctantly) pull a Sonic-Movie-Trailer and fix how ugly it is. 

★ ANNOYING CLASSMATE: Another thing that has been driving me INSANE... And I'm not so sure how it will come off. There is this person I'm sort of buddies with. I've been class buddies (and more?) with them through this past year or so but every single day they drive me a little bit closer to the edge. (please read the whole thing before you judge.. :-|)

Although they are funny sometimes, their biggest flaw is that they don't try very hard? I really like school (shocking!!) and I get very stressed out when I don't have things turned in or the resources I need to finish them. I like to do my work as best as I can, I like to study, it seems nerdy as shit because it is. ┐(´ー｀)┌ But what drives me insane is that this person is so unprepared for everything!!!!! 

And it's not like they don't care or can't do school, they just give up whenever something doesn't go their way. "Oh I need a textbook for this assignment, I forgot it, guess I'll just never turn it in and fail this class" type stuff. Would usually be okay with this, but they do this in their advanced/important classes that THEY CHOSE to join. And they also whine for me to give them the answers, to borrow my pencils and erasers because they don't have any, always asking to borrow my laptop and shit to do their work. It makes me go absolutely FERAL. 

Here's where it might be my fault though, or at least what I'm told I'm being too judgy for. (〒﹏〒) The thing is that this person is autistic, so the thing I get told a lot for why they act like this is because they "can't help it". Which, I might have to push back on. I feel like with this person, that is their fall back excuse for everything they do wrong. I know for a fact they are physically and mentally capable of being responsible, I just think they are lazy.

That's all I have for today... T.T

- KB ☆