sept 14, 2024

I went to a craft show today and it was actually really good! I got 2 crochet hats for 25 dollars and some soap that smells really good. After that my moms friend called and she needed help with a personal matter so we went over to her house for about an hour. Her child is sick as well so we helped he with some stuff. After that i got a headache so i took my medicine and laid down. As i was resting my granny's friends called and they ALSO needed help with getting some stuff for their house and also my granny cooked some food for them so they went ahead and took that to them. I was sleeping so when i woke up i was all alone and honestly a little freaked out. I calmed down after i saw the note they left on my door.

Hallucinations, they were actually not 2 bad today. Mostly telling me to harm myself in a variety of ways as usual. Fredrickson the goatman i didnt see him so far today so im happy with that.

My pain lvl has been alot better today since last night it was insanely painful in my hip and leg. So anything is better than shooting, burning, ripping pain were i cant move almost at all.

I did dissociate today i think, its hard to remember obviously but basically i was in the car and magically i was home. I do have dissociative amnisea so im 100% sure i didnt fall asleep cuze i had that weard static feeling and out of body problem.