you just leave a one day and then you are already on the floor

"No, I'm going to become more self-sufficient now, yes, yes" LIE, guess who procrastinated again for 1 whole day, that's right... me XD. I have no fucking idea what happened and why I got lazy but I don't know, it has happened to someone else where they are trying and then they sort of say "I'm going to take a break" and then they go back to the worst version of themselves. for the umpteenth time, well if the same thing happens to someone else, THEN GET OUT OF THERE NOW!, it's horrible when that happens to me man, I was like no if I'm doing well, and then I take a "break" and I completely fall apart again I have NO IDEA WHY, I would like to be pretty and at the same time intelligent and super organized but I don't know why I can't, maybe because I postpone everything, right? Right now I was thinking about how stupid I am sometimes because I promise myself many things and in the end I don't keep them. And well that, nothing more to say, a lot of ideas have come to my head since then, like I'm not going to achieve anything and I won't be anyone, how ugly it is to be about to finish high school and when you thought you already You knew you want to study, don't do anything to change it. 17:43 p.m.