I HATE HIGHSCHOOl (NOT CLICK BAIT)

im in 9th grade rn and like its kind of lame. I think its because I'm not putting myself out there? I'm just scared I wont make any friends and I wont live out my teen years I guess. I'll try to pick up some new hobbies and go to therapy and maybe i'll feel better. my mom's been saying she might send me and i really don't want to because I genuinely don't think I need to go but on the other hand I don't have any other place to say how I feel

idk I just wanna be accepted, every place I'm in I feel like a stepchild