Bittersweet Lily

Songs began to remind me of her,
Playlists once nameless now carry her name,
Lyrics that once made no sense—
Now every word aches the same.

Her pink jacket lingers in my mind,
Aching, I scream for her name—I’m losing control,
My heart, so heavy, burdened with this boulder of pain.

Delicate as a lily,
Yet bittersweet when tasted fully,
We laughed and smiled together daily.

She always told me, “Meet me at the gate.”
I’d always come running late.
We’d plan to meet, as if it was fate.

I told her I wanted another direction,
She said, “Go where you’ll find satisfaction.”
But I wish she knew I only wanted her affection.

I desired she’d crave me,
Stop me,
Tell me to stay.

Yet I pushed myself away,
As my feelings grew deep,
My eyes began to weep.

For her love, I can’t compete.
Another man covets her as I do,
Once my world was pink—now it’s turned blue.