the undeniable and inevitable change of oneself

Hi folks, it's me again, 

as some of my moots may have noticed (if you read my blog lol), I am currently on a whole another continent to pursue my ambitions and get more knowledge. However, I've had some troubles lately. For some reason, everything started irritating me. The way people act, what they do in their free time and their fake personas towards others. I am afraid that I'm going to lash out on someone who's very dear to me.  

Maybe it's just my perspective as a new student, but oh well. It's been quite hard to find some friends, especially since we have no time during classes or breaks and well... it's a private school. There's not much you can do as a foreign student. 

Also, my speaking got worse. I have no trouble finding and using difficult words in english on a computer, but the moment I speak, it's a disaster. Does that have anything to do with anxiety? 

And one more thing, I cannot join the extracurriculars, even though I am a sporty person and that is due to my health issues (knee problems...). Any tips on how to make friends? I am a socially awkward person. 

Anyway, I noticed that I started to change. My priorities started to change, my personality, my way of seeing certain situations, my attitude towards certain people... It's so scary, but at the same time I'm glad. I have no idea why all of this is happening though. I want to change but I do not like the process of it. Sigh. 

I guess there's not a lot I can do. 

Any music recommendations? I listen to everything, as stated in my bio, but lately I've been enjoying classical music and music like The smiths, Depeche Mode and overall 80's music a bit more than other genres. 

Thank you for reading! 

-D