˚✧₊⁎MY EX IS RACIST⁎⁺˳✧༚

SEPTEMBER 12 2024

I have no clue HOW I somehow manage to have not one but THREE exes who are racist!! I'm literally blk. If It isn't some white guy who's built like a mouth breather trying to act gangster, then it's a guy who excuses his friends for saying racial slurs.

I shouldn't have expected much but it was still such a major disappointment. This is sort of old news in a way but I only bring it up because it's still recent enough for me to talk abt yk? Initially, me and him broke up because I don't like hooking up and he had no REAL reason for wanting to date me. I don't think we've ever talked last year but he was soo eager to date me within the first weeks of school (RED FLAG ALERT: A GUY THAT'S BASICALLY A STRANGER SHOULD NOT BE SO EAGER TO DATE SOMEONE!!) It's not like he asked for nudes or anything right off the bat but even still, he was so weird and kind of perverted in a way. Some of the basic things I tell people when I first start dating them is my sexuality and gender. I'm aroace and I mostly js gave him a chance because at first I did like the idea of being in a relationship and having smth to look forward to other than studying and my friends but what was a major ick for me was how many times he told me he loved me and the fact that I briefly mentioned kissing and making out occasionally only for HIM to basically obsess w/ the idea of it. 

I felt guilty for pushing him away and shortly afterwards, we got back together. This time it was also pretty short-lived--To no surprise considering the title of today's blog. For some reason, he doesn't have a phone and when we first started dating, we used Instagram to chat. I was under the assumption that he was using a laptop to msg me but If I asked abt it then as of rn I don't remember the answer. ¯\_(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)_/¯ 

What I do remember is how bad I was cramping the night I called him for comfort. I've been getting a lot of spam calls lately so I tend to silence my phone every time it rings. (ig that's what happens when U make a ur mom joke to a spam caller..) This one number called me 2-3 times so I finally decided to answer. It was his friends (YEAH, HE GAVE AWAY MY NUMBER..) When I tell you his friends were being so insensitive, I MEAN IT. 

They kept asking me "Is it pink" comments that I laughed at but the more they asked the more the laughter became more and more awkward and forced. I tend to laugh and use jokes to cope so Its not like I rlly found their comments funny. Here's where it gets worse; His friends called me the N word w/ the hard r too! At first, when they asked the "Is it pink" comments by own bf laughed it off (What kind of guy is comfortable w/ his friends catcalling their girlfriend..ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY DIDN'T EVEN BELIEVE HIM WHEN HE SAID HE HAD ONE.. NOT TO MENTION HOW HE HIMSELF SAID THAT HIS FRIENDS JOKE ABT HIS WEIGHT AND MAKE HIM INSECURE AT TIMES.) I hung up the call and refused to pick up after that, he tried to talk to me but I ignored him for an hour or so (I mean, come on..I had a valid reason to + I don't like how he spam called me.) 

When I went to talk to him abt It I str8 up told him that I didn't want to be near his friends and that if he couldn't find a way for us to avoid each other than he'd have to pick between me or them. HE HAD  THE AUDACITY TO PICK THEM. Then, the next day since we sit next to each other, he goes "What, you didn't actually think i'd pick you? No offense, but they're my buddies" LIKE YEAH, SORRY FOR THINKING YOU'D STAND UP FOR YOUR GF. 

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It's crazy how petty he is for a man because he was lowkey sneak-dissing me RIGHT NEXT TO ME. He was all like "I'm not gonna say who but.." LIKE THAT WOULD CHANGE ANYTHING.

Oh and I also punched this kid in the eye lol

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 ˚✧₊⁎My Schedule-- subject to change ofc!⁎⁺˳✧༚

5:15-6:00-- I wake up and start my morning routine, and by 6:00, I'm alr on the bus heading 2 school 

6:15- 2:40-- I'm on the bus/ at school and will be MIA

3:45-4:00: I'm officially @ home 

 ˚✧₊⁎Afterschool planning-- subject to change⁎⁺˳✧༚

MOST of the time, I end up coming home and playing a game or sleeping...and perhaps idly being on c.ai. and as of now, I don't participate in any afterschool activities like clubs or sports. But then again, my school has this writing club I might join. I am completely drained and totes exhausted by the time school ends so what's the point yk? 

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Weekly QOTD + sign-off

QOTD; Is it valid to punch a dude in the eye after he screams in your friend's ear?? 

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