Conflict of religious interests.

I've been really on and off with my relationship with Wicca/magick and it's starting to get to me, I've been heavily interested in this religion for years and have been slowly putting in my research but I've hit a sort of road-block. My depression has stopped me from putting any of my energy into this and it's negatively affecting me, I feel that getting back on this spiritual path will help me with my mental state and give me something to focus on and ground myself with. I've always agreed with the core beliefs of Wicca and I want to engage with those beliefs and put them into action through magick but being raised Atheist has made this much harder.

It's really hard to let go of the "There are no higher powers" style of Atheism my parents raised me in even though I want to change my mindset. I feel a deep connection with Aphrodite and I feel that she is affecting my life for the greater good but if I cannot overcome my mentality of "this cannot be, what I'm feeling isn't real, *she* isn't real." it'll stop me from bettering myself. I want to work with her and I can tell she wants to work with me but if I deny her her power and ignore her importance it'll stunt our relationship and what we'd be able to do. It's really difficult to move past such fundamental beliefs in my life--it's basically formed my entire worldview since my birth and my entire understanding of the universe.

Great change is coming and is happening, I can feel it. I feel unguided and uncertain in my place in life. How should I procede? I'm currently working on meditation and communicating with my parents about my feelings and communicating with Aphrodite to get her viewpoint and her opinions. I know my parents will support me but it's still hard, y'know?