I need someone to tell me wat to do

So I can't handle this alone and I need one ov y'all to give me direction. So I found out a few dayz ago that my bff since freshman year mite have cancer, and we are both so scared and don't know what to do with ourselfvez, he's working and stuffs but I have no job, I feel so deadz because I don't want to lose him, he's literally my soulmate. I need some outside op because I am going crazy trying to deal with myself.. vv sorry if this is to sad for y'all