I feel so mean

I have one cousin that looks up to me a lot, she even asked her parents to go to the same hs as me (I graduated last year, she’s starting her first year) and one of the things my extended family knows about is is that I’m a bit good at writing, I don’t really enjoy it, but good at it.

My parents always shared any of my writing assignments when I was younger with everyone, to show off how cool and creative their daughter is. One of my aunts told me to publish a book over and over, but again, I don’t like writing. I won’t write unless I had to.

In the past two years my cousin talked about how she’s writing her own book, how it’s going to be so good, that she’s going to be a young author and i was really really excited for her! She gradually stopped talking about it and I assumed maybe she paused her writing or no publishing house decided to pick up her book so she quit it or whatever. She didn’t share, so I didn’t pry.

Well a week ago I found it, I bought it, I found out that the main character was named after me!! 

All that excitement died as I read it…it was SO SO bad! The writing was weirdly inconsistent, there is no plot, no problems, no solution, no lesson to be learned..the main character is literally not doing anything?? Just kinda exists while everything happens around her. The ending was “it was all a dream” BRO?!?

I’m so confused on how it got drawn and get published. Did her parents not read it? No editor? No feed back from here teachers in school?? IT SUCKS! IT SUCKS SO BAD!!!!!

I was so excited to surprise her that I bought it, to let her sign it and gas her up. But I’m so ashamed of owning it, I feel like the fact that it sits in my shelf is gonna curse the rest of my books…I don’t know, I feel like I’m bullying a kid but dude (༎ຶ ‿ ༎ຶ)