I am honestly getting so sick of it

This is the shit that tells me why I should never get help and just do something very stupid. Because like what the fuck I am trying to be a decent person I am getting so much of everything I was thriving 10 years ago and I lost so much and people just always want to treat me like shit, Like goddamn maybe if you took a step in my shoes for one fucking day there would be way nicer people I honestly think this person is capable of making me do something very awful and that's not okay it's really not okay.... God now I know why shit...  It makes a ton of sense he just has to like goddamn why can't idk I don't feel good though and as a matter of fact that'sdfmkjadsjkdskjs I am tired I am trying my best right now