im not okay - song

im scared of these thoughts that look like u

but im glad they are in my head

yeah im glad that you are in my head 

excuse me for my afraid to be left

but i just cant help it

everyone always left yeah

im trying hard not to cry 

when im missing u

when im missing u

im not okay when u dont hit me back

im not okay when u are far away from me

just needed to get this off my chest

all the words u say

are like sugar and poison

my heart is heavy now 

im scared and i admit that

i just want you to be mine

and yeah i know im being selfish

but f it i just wanna love u

till u grow tired of me

your soul is the gem that i found

in my whole life i only found rocks

now im saying to myself

i just have to keep u

im scared of these thoughts that look like u

but im glad they are in my head

yeah im glad that you are in my head 

excuse me for my afraid to be left

but i just cant help it

everyone always left yeah

im not okay when u dont hit me back

im not okay when u are far away from me

just needed to get this off my chest

and in another life 

we would be close

from just a hug away

you just have no idea

how i want to love u

and you have no idea

how much i wanna be loved by u