you always said my only existence was teaching you how to be careful with yourself and other people
that my only existence was teaching you how to treat other people right
sorry, I don’t think I succeeded
in the end, you never learned how to be careful with me
in the end, you never learned how to treat me right
maybe it’s because my love was too overwhelming in its tenderness
maybe it’s because I was too rough in that gentleness I had for you
how should’ve I done everything right?
should’ve I ignored your pain
should’ve I not try and learn your native language
mi amor, siempre te he estado esperando
lo siento mucho, parece que me equivoque
should’ve I not comfort you when you cried, even when I felt like screaming my lungs out
should’ve I not check the weather in your town
should’ve I not wish you to have a good morning and a good night even when I was mad at you
everything is so confusing, I was always leading your way, now do the same
wait, you can’t
you’re not here
you weren’t cut out for my gentle self
you belong to the battlefield
I’m sorry, I do not wish to take a bullet for someone who used to point a gun at me for my crime of being myself, sincere and passionate
I am gentle
gentle things should be kept under the protective glass
since now you’re allowed to peek only
because now I’m only an exhibit in a museum
look, but do not touch
there’s a barrier between my sensitive skin, like if it was an open wound, and your hands as hard as a sandpaper
between my vulnerable self and your mind as cruel as a mind of a soldier
things you grieved over left your life
that grief you had for them didn’t
you keep holding on that
there’s nothing I can do
even that gentleness I had
it was so great yet so weak in front of the face of that performance of yours,
your sufferings
let it be
I cannot blame myself anymore
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