:( why are girls so mean

idk why but apparently one of the girls in our friend group doesn’t like me :( 

there’s 5 of us. me, my 2 friends from our class (i’m in beauty school so we start as small classes that last 6 weeks, and then move to the floor with everyone else) and 2 girls from a class that started a little after us. 

i’ll call the first two friends A and B, and the other two C and D. 

i went to A’s house tonight so we could practice for our test. B was there too, everything was good. before B got there, A and i went to target to grab bags for her test. she asked me “do you think D is mean to you?” and i was like “no”. cause i didn’t wanna be wrong about the slight feeling i had that i was being excluded. i was like “why, does she not like me?” and i already knew the answer. 

she told me no, and then she told me “when we were taking her graduation pictures and you were on your phone, she waved at me and B really fast and mouthed “only you two, no mary”. we told B about it when she got to the house cause she didn’t notice and she was like “what the fuck, i didn’t notice that, if i did i would’ve given her a dirty look” and i was like yeah like wtf. 

i was on my phone too cause my mom was texting me “mama (my great grandma) is gonna pass in 24 hrs from what the nurse said” and “you might have to come over here after school”. and she did. she died in that 24 hours. i’m not hung up over it, it’s just the fact that i was dealing with something mad serious and she was doing ts simultaneously was craaazzzyyy. 

and apparently she would like never include me in shit but C would at least ask where i was or if i was coming somewhere. and now that A, B, and D have graduated it’s just me and C left, which is fine cause as far as i know we’re cool, we’re just definitely not close after learning that. cause she’s really close with D. 

i’m just sad cause i didn’t do anything to be excluded as far as i know. and it was overall just really mean and hurt my feelings. i’m probably gonna text her like “im so sorry if i ever made you feel uncomfortable by being around. i didn’t know you didn’t really like me until recently so i thought i was welcome. that’s my bad, good luck with everything!” or something else and make her feel bad. i really want to but depending on the vibes once i graduate i might not. idk. ik im just salty rn