TW for mentions of addictions, self harm, suicide, other shit like that

life's pretty shitty rn x_x

been sh and drinking again, whoopsies :3

i was supposed to graduate years ago, but because my brain's total garbage i had to drop out, and now i'm stuck

may have to go to a special school to graduate, still have to get a reply

just know that if it's negative, i'm gonna tell my therapist i'm planning to kms

ik mental hospitals aren't great or a holiday or anything, i just want to get away and for professionals to finally take me seriously

last time i showed a professional my scars (back in 2019/20) she told me "it's not deep enough" HUH?! bitch fuck you, glad she's not my psychiatrist anymore :3

anyway, my partners left to a town an hour away for college, leaving me alone, that's mostly why i want to kms and fall back into whatever addiction i can fall back into because WHO CAREZ

probably gonna get drunk tonight again, haven't been sober since thursday

jf