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adhd sucks
im so done with having adhd. some people tell me its like a fun quirky power i have or something, or that it makes me silly goofy bc i tell fun stories in an animated way or jump between topics in an interesting manner or am generally a creative person. but they dont understand that the things they criticise me for are also adhd things!!
i can barely make a to-do list, and its even worse trying to get things done from that list. just start something??? its harder than it seems. i know what i have to do but i cant bring myself to do anything. and i cant even process that things need to be done until its almost too late. i can barely get myself food throughout the day bc im so bad at actually DOING the prep and DOING the grocery shopping. my room is a DISASTER at all times, which is embarassing, i dont even like opening the door too wide bc i dont want anyone to see inside.
i feel like a gross person sometimes bc of it. like im morally failing bc i fail to do things many other people see as easy or part of routine.
my most recent adhd related struggle moment wasnt even bc of me!!
it was when one of my new flatmates told me she wanted to take some of my adhd meds and snort them, which was a CRAZY thing to say to me!! ive been locking them up every single day now!! her justification for saying this? she's a uni student so sometimes she 'needs' my meds. well, clearly she doesnt understand that i need them every day, not just when its exam week.
i know this blog was pretty negative. i dont usually feel so negatively about myself or my adhd. but i just moved into a new flat with new flatmates who are far more functional than i am so im feeling extra weird about it.
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i completely get this !! even when society is becoming more " understanding " of adhd, you're still shamed for struggling with things because it's an inconvenience for other people. like if you broke your leg no one would complain that you couldn't walk,, but with adhd since it's a mental thing people just ignore it !!!! and your friend joking about your meds is awful btw.. like you need them they're prescribed for a reason (╥_╥)
i completely get this !! even when society is becoming more " understanding " of adhd, you're still shamed for struggling with things because it's an inconvenience for other people. like if you broke your leg no one would complain that you couldn't walk,, but with adhd since it's a mental thing people just ignore it !!!! and your friend joking about your meds is awful btw.. like you need them they're prescribed for a reason (╥_╥)
fr!! its all 'adhd is so quirky cute manic pixie dream girl' until i forget things people told me or my room looks like a bomb went off in it. and yeahhh ive been locking up my meds diligently since she said that, i wish i didnt have to but ig this is the world we live in T_T
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oops sorry i copy and pasted your reply into the comment box to remember what it said as i replied but i forgot to delete it lmao just ignore that first part
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