9.8.2024 blog entry ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

9.8.2024 || EST

literary yap session (the sequel)

im writing this on a saturday night so it might not be alot due to the fact that im xtremely sleep deprived and its freezing in my bedroom (somehow, since im wearing this huge thick aeropostale hoodie and it makes my shoulders look very big which i do not like (,,>﹏<,,)). this past week my sleep schedule has been SHIT. for a little context, last year i was pretty much nocturnal and would pull like 2 all nighters almost every whether they were consistent or not, and right now i have way too much sleep debt. so a while ago i tried fixing that, i got alot of sleep more often, which wasnt necessarily good because by alot of sleep i mean sleep at 11pm-2am and waking up at 2-5 pm, but either way i was getting aLOT of sleep. i was also so sleep deprived i couldnt even pull all nighters anymore, and i mean literally. i remember one night vividly, it was like 7 AM in the morning and i was like "might as well not go to sleep", and i tried and i ended up waking up with my phone knocked on the floor, which meant i fell asleep, and thats when i knew shit was bad. so since then ive been getting tired more recently (unless i have caffiene) (monster energy drinks my beloved) (can you tell i cant stand coffe). okay i got a little off topic but the point is i get tired alot more easily now for some reason, like i used to thrive on 20 minutes of sleep, i remember being super hyper normally but when i got more than 7 hours of sleep i would be super tired cuz i wasnt used to it (-_-) . once again though, not the point; so im just gonna magically transition to a different, semi-related topic that i was supposed to bring up originally; my sleep schedule this week has been absolute ass!!1! and i dont even know why, i dont have insomina anymore, thank god, but ive just been staying up for no reason, i wake up for school at 6 am (i end up actually getting up out of bed at 7 sometimes though), to slather makeup all over my face bcuz i dont wanna look ugly at school, and i go to sleep at times between 12-3 am. which is actually pretty good that my minimum nowadays is 3 hours of sleep and not 30 minutes. on friday i decided to be super quirky and go to sleep at 4am for whatever dumbass reason, and i woke up (surprisingly) the first time my alarm rang. now i was no stranger to 2 hours of sleep on a school day, but this wasnt the past and i was SUPER tired. and it was a shame too because my outfit for school that day looked suuper nice (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠). i remember like at the end of the day i got supper irritable and was giving a bunch of people dirty looks which i feel SUPER bad about. one girl in my class im kind of friends with accidently pushed a chair on my finger last period and i got super mad for some reason :( (the things sleep deprivation can do to someone) nearing the middle of last period i just completely shut down and wouldnt talk at all, and i kept zoning out but not the "deep in thought" zoning out, my head was just empty. nonetheless, i did end up sleeping early that night, i slept at like 1 or 2 am, i dont remember, but that is very early for a friday night. since i usually stay up late when i dont have school the day after. though after coming back from school, the sleep deprivation seemed to still be getting to me (i do not take naps unfortunately since my mom gets mad at me when i do for some reason (;-;) ) but joke aside, i ended up doing something very stupid after getting out of the shower, and i decided to cut my hair! myself! with a part of safety scissors i found in my kitchen drawer! with no tutorial! i cut my bangs like- a little below the middle of my big ugly ass nose, but my hair is curly so they ended up springing up almost 2 inches!!11?!!? i guess i was kind of going for a short curtain bangs look but they are not that, now theyre like, up to my eyebrow. at realization of what i just did, i panicked and called a school-friend. i ended up telling my mom and she surprisingly didnt care as much as i thought she would to be honest. now its saturday, the day after, and they are not even allat bad, i do not know what i was stressing over. theyre kind of cute, thank god they dont look like blunt bangs though because of my cowlick because i do not think those would look good on me. today (Saturday) i didnt really do anything, woke up, at 1pm, called a friend and played dress to impress for like 3 hours, ate breakfast at 2pm (i only ate it cus there were pancakes in the fridge , i love pancakes (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)) and binged strangers things for the next 7 hours (i know im like 20 years late to watching it leave me alone) now im in my bed writing this and its 12 am :3 thats all though so good day to whoever wasted their time reading this!!

(P.S: i think im gonna start writing these silly entires once every five days, i dont really care if no one see's them since its fun and stress relieving for me tbh.)