Internal Resolution (Poem)

The path has become unclear, all that’s revealed is my one true fear. My career on hold, a year I’ll never get back. Promises, hopes, cut like broken glass.

I face this journey with uncertainty, I struggle to get to sleep. Am I as good as I hoped I’d be? Do I have the skills, do I hold the keys? Is it fair to drag you along with me?

People take interest, it’s hard to accept. A life of self doubt, now I have to be confident. I tell myself to shield myself away, but I know brutal honesty will get me through the day.

I fear rejection, I hope for success. The words once spoken, make me full of regret. I have to take a step, I have to move forward, can’t someone push me into that first quarter?

I’m falling apart, inside and out. It’s 3 am gone, my head is full of doubt. I’d ask for company, for some sort of solution. But I think the answer lies in internal resolution.

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It's strange that i can identify with your poem. I know exactly that feeling bcs i've been going through the same thing, year after year after year.....

You're not wrong for wanting a company in your journey, they don't magically make our problems disappeared but at least they can make painful things more bearable. Also, we all need helps, sometimes i imagine what if someday i meet someone that gives me a positive "butterfly effect"? idk. I feel like i'm just a little rat running inside a labyrinth and not sure how to get out. I'll be grateful if there's people who match with my frequency and show me the way. Now i'm getting tired and everyday is just the same old same old.

Sorry if this comment comes off depressing.
I hope we all have happy ending. 🖤

Nice poem Matt.

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Thank you, I appreciate it.

I just always end up convincing myself that my depression and anxiety is kinda rubbing off on people or something. I recently found out I have a personality disorder so now Im constantly thinking thats fucking things up too. Its a mess lol

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Hey i totally understand, i have few psychological pains too. I know how it feels like when parts of us are seen as annoyance and we're scared to be exposed. To me, it feels like i'm an "actress" playing certain role that's acceptable in society haha. B-b-but that's just the consequences, if you're against the grain, then they'd probably see you as a . That's why it's important to find your "soul tribe", bcs they'll understand you. Hope you'll meet plenty of them. and hope you're gonna be freed by whatever that's bothering you. Good luck and take care. 🖤