started 12th grade

so i started my last year of high school this week and im genuinely so done with everyone 😭

i my photography class theres these two guys that r lit sitting in front of me now and im having violent thoughts... like i wanna beat the shit out of them both 

like i want to physically strangle them. i have no idea why but most of the time when i meet a man my first feelings towards them are hate until i get to know them more. like theres guys i know that i genuinely like being around (like 3...) but these guys are those annoying ones that talk sooo like... ANNOYING. sometimes i wish i was still at an all girls school but tbh that school made me want to kms more (im a tranny man) and it was catholic school like i was soooo sick of catholic schools bruh nobody in my house is that religious 😭😭 i mean my dad says hes a heavy christian but like ion see him praying??? tf?? 

anyways im tryna figure out what to do after high school because i dont wanna go straight to college but i also dont wanna be a bum but then i genuinely dont know what im gonna do with my life

i did not think i was gonna live this far in life wtf

but ive been so stressed with school already because my friend is having a mental breakdown every hour because she wants to switch her classes...

i dont have a problem with my classes yet like theyre pretty chill, but the thing is my friend whos a grade below me  has a science class where shes the only girl and an art class with a teacher that we have beef with (thats a whole other thing 😭😭) and our guidance is actually so ass

apparently theyre like all booked up for two weeks but theyre not doing shit (heard that from a friend) but i think finally they opeend so my friend was gonna go in there and ry until she gets her courses changed LMAOOO

THERES ALSO THE PROBLEM WITH MY LOCKER. so apparently grade 12s need to sign up to get a locker unlike the rest of the grades that already get assigned to one... THE FUCK??

like i get wanting to make the grade 9s a priority but like bitch i need a locker. i tried opeong my old one because i memorized the combo but it didnt work??? idk they probably changed it or i got it wrong... ill check back at home since i have it saved. 

kinda a rant but wtv im tweaking.