I'm Ugly And I'm Not Okay With It.

Wrote this on 9-7-2024.

Hello, I'm Venemi (Not my real name) And I'm Ugly.
"But, how could you say that to yourself?" 

When I was 9, my aunt was taking care of us (Me and My sister), she was very abusive, she would drag us by our hair sometimes, or throw stuff at us whenever she gets mad.

One night, her daughter who's also staying with us told my aunt that I threw my phone at her back when she was sleeping, which is not true. My aunt got mad and grabbed my phone and threw it at me.

My phone flew near my left eye, I was in pain. It felt like i got black-eyed.

It was dark and gloomy in our room, the only light source was the light from my aunt's phone. 

She switched the light on, and what she saw made her look pale.

My left eye was bleeding, there was blood everywhere.

My aunt started crying.

"OH MY GOD, I'M SO SORRY, I DIDN'T KNOW!" 

11 PM, we're driving to the hospital to get my scar stitched. 

We got home after 12 AM midnight.

It left a scar.

I want the scar gone.

First Day of School 2022.

I got bullied for how I look.

I got made fun of for having an asymmetrical face.

"Dang, you got a big forehead, by the way, what's that near your left eye?" 

" The new girl got these big scary eyes, it's very ugly."

" She thinks she's pretty? what a joke."

Early 2023,

I got asked out as a joke.

I thought he liked me, turns out he only asked me out so that I would leave his friend alone cause he thought I "Like"  his friend. 

The dude they assumed I have a crush on doesn't want an ugly girl crushing on him.

They planned about this. 

Now, 2024.

I liked a boy, and he liked me too.

After a few months, this dude made a group chat about me.

The group members were just him and his sexist friends.

They talked about me, on how ugly I was.

Fucking scar ruined my life.

God, I just wanna feel pretty once.