𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝘼𝙥𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙮

so let’s start with this one its long over do imma tell y’all a short story and then get to the actually point of this entry so to start this actually i was fresh outta of a relationship of almost 8 months all down the drain because i was a self sabotage demon and i couldn’t handle talking about my feelings and the way i felt about things also adding that close friends of mine didn’t make it any better with all there comments about the situation well there wasn’t a situation but i kept overthinking it and kept making it seem worse than what it actually was. after that break up i didn’t really feel a way it was weird but its life yk so after that i talked to someone else i got done real dirty and i was at my lowest what i did wasn’t as bad as what happened too me but i consider it karma for the last relationship and accepted it the main plot of this story starts here a week or 2 later i started talking with this really cool girl she was really nice and actually cared about me i couldn’t say that about the last relationship but i was happy but then i started to do me and you could probably guess what that is if you said over think 

you get a golden star if you didn’t you can try again next time so another issue of mines is that i never took the time to heal and actually like take time with it  but i rushed into a relationship not knowing fully if i wanted it well at the time and that’s terrible of me truly so we go on as if everything is alright this time i don’t self sabotage well thank god i didn’t but we basically got to the point of me visiting her at her house and meeting her parents then switches started going off in my head because we we’re getting somewhat serious our parents were talking and everything and i had my doubts and was overthinking so i did the single handedly most shameful thing in my life given her one of those half ass break up texts talking about i was too busy with figuring out what school i wanted to go to after high school and with life in general to actually stay in the relationship she took it we’ll actually she didn’t get mad or say anything when she had every right too i thought we would still be friends but that was selfish of me so i stopped trying after that i’ve always felt guilty with how i ended things and how i handled it completely it wasn’t right and i knew that i was not emotionally intelligent enough to talk and do what was right and i sold a real bag having a friend like her so here it is i just wanted to apologize for what i did it wasn’t right and you deserved better i hope everything is going good for you and that you are happy you didn’t smile much but your smile was pretty cute and it was bright like a super nova also ik this could have been texted to her privately but i wanted to show y’all a true side of me most of you think i’m the most honest or genuine person in the world but that far from the case i do better now seeing that i matured quite a bit but i’m still human and make very dum decisions sometimes we’ll not anymore we’ll most of the time so here’s tonight’s entry a long awaited apology for someone that was truly special to me.🌧️🌂🌧️🌂🌧️🌂🌧️🌂