theater tech class musings 09/0/2024

since I don't have to take a science this year, I got to take theater tech class, which has so many of my friends in it. I am so so happy. the class is also so chill. its way better than any science class ever periodt

there is this one guy in the class and he is so fine. but like I'm pretty sure he was the one who was behind a massive fucking scandal last year (it ended up on national news and there were so many articles and protests about it and the tweet exposing it got over 1 million views - but im not going to mention it because I don't want to dox myself). the person who caused the scandal in the first place was kept anonymous by the media, but some people were saying it was him and if that is true, then I don't fuck with that guy anymore. 

we had a lockdown drill today. it was so unserious though. i don't really understand how people aren't scared by that type of event - they were giggling and just staying on their phones. I hope they don't do that shit if an actual lockdown happens. they need to lock in fr. 

I am so tired and I just want to go back to bed but I have about 3 hours and 30 minutes until school ends. I have so many assignments that I need to do and shit but I'm FUCKING EXHAUSTED OKAY JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. 

at least I don't hate school that much anymore. since I've transferred the classes here have been chill and I love my friends so much <333333333333

Im badly craving chocolate, a boba tea, and a cigarette. also some weed too 

I cant wait until I stop getting drug tested and I can smoke za again. I <3 pot bro 

i don't mind being single that much anymore, but this is the longest time I've gone without being in a talking stage with someone or dating them. I haven't really been single since 8th grade. so I've gone like 4 months without dating anybody since I broke up with my ex bf. I mean, I was talking to some guy in july, but we was like super fucking weird so I blocked him. I know that I don't really need a man or whatever but like i need a man you know. I don't need one but I need one. or a girlfriend or partner. its just funnier for me to say man and stuff. 

either I'm delusional or something but I'm pretty sure the hot guy in my theater class keeps on looking at me. I'm probably imagining it tho. 

I'm so tired rahhhhhh