An Anniversary [5/9]

Tomorrow is me and my Girlfriends 1 year anniversary and I just cant stop thinking about it, its just so crazy to me that it's already been a year. 

We've both changed so much as people and just our general relationship has also become so much more than I ever expected it to be, its so funny to me as well, because the things we looked down on other couples for doing are things we consistently do now. We always say to each other "y'know if ourselves months ago saw us now I don't think they'd approve" and we just laugh about it because we were just so awfully strict but mostly nervous with each other and how people would perceive us. 

Outside of growing as a couple, being in a relationship has made me realise so many things that's made me sympathise with the friends I never understood when they were in a relationship in the past. Within realising all of those things after experiencing it for myself I think my outlook on a lot of things have changed. 

I can still remember being cautious about everything when we started dating - I always had my guard up no matter what and I could tell she didn't understand why. I was afraid all of the trust i'd put in her being told to others, all of the love being too much to handle, being too hyperactive, loud, unserious ect. I was afraid of everything turning on its back and just absolutely shitting in my face (FIGURATIVELY...). 

My point in what i'm saying is I was most of all terrified of things not working out.

But she's helped me at my lowest, been endlessly patient with and understanding with me and just has shown me amounts of appreciation and love I always believed I never deserved. Shes accepted and told me she loves me for me, despite all my insecurities and things I claim as cons of myself/being with me. and I wake up everyday so thankful I have someone like her. 

Anyways but for a little celebration gift I bought her perfume and some flowers. know it doesn't sound like a lot especially for a big anniversary but the perfume is..really expensive. Plus she has a perfume addiction so i'm only adding to her fast-growing collection. I really wanna get her a promise ring as soon as I can, like I've said before in my previous blog - I need to get a job. 

Anyways, I need to write in her card before I write too much here. She wont see this anyways because she uses Spacehey mobile >:).