im starting to sound so much older

talking abt how bad my weed addiction is getting and being happy that i was able to have a beer and a cig yesterday makes me sound so much older than i am. sometimes i forget im a literal teenage highschool student who has homework and assessments and im not just some carefree young adult. 

i miss when i was able to even be a teen man. i miss being able to be a little dorky with my friends and talking pictures all the time. now its suddenly all abt whos dating who, who likes each other, whos skipping this, who has this and blah blah blah. ik experimenting with all this stuff is and was a part of many people's highschool lives but i just think it makes you worry abt so much more yk.

idk. maybe im thinking too much about this. maybe i need a cone to myself for a change.

xo robbie