90 or nothing: IM SO BACK(hopefully) 4/9/24

hey gang this one is gonna be a bit shorter cuz i have a math test TOMORROW that i need to grind for. im not even joking, im getting 90% or nothing. i got my physics test back today and its wasn't great but not awful (70%) but my best friend got 98% (ONE QUESTION WRONG) and now i need to push myself so we can get honour badges together and prove the pricks at our school wrong. 

today nothing really happened except for the fact that i had an epiphany while listening to sing about me im dying of thirst: my dad didn't fight and struggle through most of his life under systematic oppression for me to die at 16, he didn't have to do that. he could have stayed in the area he lived in, had a shitty job, had shitty kids who grew up to be druggies or gangsters and died at 20 in a gun fight. he didn't have to fight and kick and scream for me, but he did, so i can't let all of that go to waste just because im scared of the future and feel stupid now. i need to make all of the shit he's gone through worth it. and im the only one who can do that. 

im the only one who can save me. 

so im gonna do what i have to even if it sucks now so that one day i can look back on all of the shitty stuff i went through in high school and laugh at it and tell my kids about it when they're going through a hard time. 

guys thats so corny lol

the and <3

sing about me im dying of thirst- kendrick lamar