Meow

Hi vampies , I know I haven’t been active on here in a hot minute,, life been - something and i honestly been having a daily crisis every day questioning who I am , and what mindset my mind is going to be every day where it either I want to be selfish and care for myself and be confident, or being actually delusional and suicidal and be scared of the world or be that bubbly kind sweet person who see good in everything. Lately I’ve cut a few people out of my life for the sake of my sanity and the sake of my well being plus peace , Im a senior now so I just have to deal with everyone bull shit for a few more months and I’ll be fine, I’ll be okay.

I love my job so much, I’m a server and work at a buffet , my customers are so sweet especially the regulars my god such sweet hearts and kind souls . I get paid good ( aka I make good tips ) and my co workers are sweethearts too. I much rather be at work than school any day .

I’m going to a friend house today and I’m actually so unbelievably nervous yet so UNBELIEVABLY EXCITED. Life been great yes I have my little downs but my ups are so much more affected than my downs . 

I feel like I hate school because I see my ex and his brother all the time and they can’t do anything else but STARE at me, it uncomfortable and makes my anxiety just shoot up because they both cause damage into my life and both continue to play victim which is just, funny to say the least . but yeah. Life been something I don’t want to go in depth- I’m sorry this blog is like literally all over the place;;…

Well that all for now, bye bye my bats