More about me (for those interested in wanting to know)

I'm 44 years old. (I hate the term old because I'm honestly not.) (Your age does not in any way define you as a person. Not really.) Still with me? heh-heh.

Anyway... So... I'm 44 years old, and was born in Pittsburg California. I am Irish/Italian (Yes, that means I'm White for those following...and a few other things not sure exactly) I grew up and was raised in the system as a ward of the court aka raised by the Government in various Group Homes, Foster Care Mental Health facilities, you name it. (Point is it wasn't a fun upbringing at least not for me.)

Still with me? Well...okay then shall we continue? :)

I have never had a life of privilege and being White don't mean shit for me as I have never seen life in Color (Yes,as in Skin Color). I have never been rich or even Middle Class, I've been poor and lived in horrible neighborhoods my whole life and been around tons of different types of people. I've never committed any crimes or been to jail or prison, thankfully. I've always stayed out of trouble for the most part. Never doing drugs or smoking etc I'm not about Peer Pressure. (I feel like that is a mythological term or something) I'm a Light Social Drinker. I love Karaoke, and pretty much just living a nice simple life without all the politics, Drama and Bullshit Chaos of the world currently. I mind my own business and just live. That's all we can do. Worrying about things you have Zero control over is utterly pointless. We live in a rigged system. It's the Rich vs. The Poor. The Haves vs. the Have-Not's. Always has been, always will be. (no point in trying to delude yourselves into thinking otherwise.)

Still here, Still with me???

Well, then I shall continue heh-heh.

My entire Adult life has consisted of Homelessness, Receiving Mental Health services for having a Borderline Personality Disorder, Severe PTSD, and being on the Autism Spectrum. I am also an SSI/SSD recipient. (Since I was 21) My friends I still never owned a vehicle due to never being taught how to Drive. All I know in life was Self-Taught. 

Anyway, if you are still reading then I consider you worthy enough a person to now read the good stuff.

Now for the awesome good stuff:

Like the "about me" section on my page says, I've been doing ART in various mediums damn near all my life since I was around 2 when my first canvas were walls of my parents Duplex! I was always super creative. Had to be in order to escape the realities of this shitty world. My only honest regrets thus far, Is not being able to make good and positive business connections, so I could actually be one of those Successful Artists and have one of those awesome origin stories. Nah, I'm just me. I've always had issues with Self-Esteem and Confidence in my abilities. Sadly, most of my art career came at a cost. Everybody profited from my work except for me. I never got paid a dime for any of my hard work and effort. For the longest time I was resentful, spiteful, Depressed and hated myself a ton, but not nearly as much as I hated the rest of the world. I just wanted to be paid for all my hard work, so I could have a nice comfy life as the pay-off. but, this is reality. Reality is a cruel Bitch. 

Anyway, if you've come this far in my entry, then I consider you a worthy potential friend. Please by all means share your thoughts. maybe you have struggles of your own. I'd love to hear all about them. You (Yes You), who are reading this are important to me as is what you have to say. You are amazing and your voice matters. Just know that. Life is far to short, far too precious a thing, and far too awesome to be so full of Self Hate and Hate for others. We live in such shitty times. It's time to unplug yourself from the Media and all the chaos they keep stirring up to fuel that Fear and that Hatred. We are in this world for such a short time. We need to make the best of it, not matter the situations we find ourselves in.

So, in closing to those few still reading this...

Stay strong! Keep your heads up and keep your wits about you! Just know that "You" are not alone here! I am struggling with you. Perhaps we can do it together. Life is far better when facing the storm of it all as a group of friends and emotional supports. There's far too much Love, Kindness and Compassion to give people. We need to replace all the Hate and Negativity. You don't need some imaginary God to give you these things, just do it. We all have the power within ourselves to make the best of our own lives and control what happens in it. 

If you got this far, Please ADD me, you are worthy of my Friendship just as I am worthy of yours.

Thanks for reading this. 

~Gauge