Yap section (sorry I say 'like' a lot im from California)

I lot of thing has happened in my life and feel still feel in shock like i final have been able to forgive and forget people in my life. And it feels good to move on like a part of me still think I should be mad, but I just dont care enough. I have so mush to look in the future I really want to do good this year, like in school, and I want to try to draw more. Its been sooo long since ive draw anything especially cuz school just started for me. I really hope I can get a short romance with this school year, like i haven’t had a crush in like 8 years WHICH IS LIKE CRAZY and i now im not asexual cuz I love the idea sex (im still a loser virgin) idk i might aromantic but im to scared to even try dating mainly cuz IM A TRANS MAN PER-TRANSING STILL IN THE CLOSEST AND BI WITH ZERO GAME and like I now if I do try dating someone I would first have to come out, then actually talk to them AND TALKING IT NOT THE PROBLEM LIKE IM AN OPEN BOOK ASK ME ANYTHING AND I WILL TELL THE TRUST but like starting the actual conversation is the problem and my type is mostly guys so the changes a guy will date me AND SEE ME AS A MEN IS CLOSE THE ZERO ALSO THE BIGGEST REASON LITERALLY IM FAT UGLY AND A NERD IM SOO COOKED so yeah dating life sucks after this I just might do a face reveal