Tonight 10:43 September 2nd

I finally have a new job and I wanna quit and be a kid again I feel like we take being a child for granted and now all I wanna do is go back back to when my grandparents where silly and kinder to me when all I seen where smiles and not the harsh reality that awaits us all back to when my cousins and I were sleeping on the floor at are grandmas house eating what ever we could find make forts with chairs and blankets playing games waiting for Sunday dinner and Saturday breakfast I wish I could have the relationship every daughter has with there dad in the movies and mom whom is independent and wouldn’t settle for a nothing dragging us with her but at the same time life is so bad I wanna grow up idk what I would say to little me or what she would say to me I would just hold her and tell her I’m fine even tho I’m not to give her a little more time to be innocent because lord knows the world took that from her to young. I use to think I was so sad and depressed and at this age it’s probably the same thing but I’m in my 30s wish I can go back to when it’s was good the my prime is this really the best years of my life? I’ve been crying all night because of little things that happened and I guess my period is also a big factor but is it worth it do I have a reason to cry?