I'm so tired

You know, I think I might have NPD. suddenly I feel so overly confident, and it's ever since Abby left my life. Sophia is the only person IRL who is my best friend and comforted me. I really love Sophia. In a friend way, of course. She's the best person I could've asked for. But for fucks sake, I think Abby leaving me just triggered something. What did I even do wrong? Nothing. Nothing at all. I'm a good person. I don't do anything wrong. I've stopped all the the dark jokes she hates. Do I need to change myself completely for her? Do I, Abby? DO I?