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Hello all!
The past few days have been very difficult. I've been struggling with focusing and I don't feel real. It's been hard for me to feel like a person. I'm such a perfectionist that if I feel human emotions like anger or jealousy I beat myself over it & alienate myself from all humans, like I am dirt. Which isn't true. I like to only talk to my girlfriend, two or maybe three friends & my mom. Any more and I am stressed! I am just the most introverted a person can be. I always dreamt about having a girlfriend and friends but now that it is true I don't want anything else. I'm content. But I should focus on college most... I've been avoiding work and whenever I think of it I shake a little. I'll work tonight and a lot tomorrow. I promise!
I watched a video about angels today. It was interesting... Did you know names with "El" in them are angel names? "El" means God or something... And my name has "El" in it so I have an angel name... I sometimes want to change my name but I don't anymore.
Overall I'm thankful for where I am today, even if I struggle a lot. I worked so hard to get here... I'm proud of myself.
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Jon 🐇
yay for being proud of yourself *hugs* :)
vii (๑>◡<๑)
HII! the focusing part might be adhd or something that's stressing you out (whether you know what it is or not) I totally understand the not feeling real sometimes it's just better to tell yourself "This is temporary" instead of focusing too much on it!!
I want you to know emotions are normal and you should never beat yourself up over it.
It's what makes you human. Having emotions is a reminder that your body signals to you to show you you're human!!!!! I'm glad you can recognize the fact talking to too many people will stress you out ^_^
It's okay to be an introvert! so many people are (such as me) and it's not a bad thing unless you want to be more social thenI could try my best to help y giving advice and strategies to become more social!! it's a process for sure.
also its so cool ur name is an angel name!
Thank you so much, ur words mean a lot to me, thank u for the kind comment. Ur very right! & Yes.. I'm trying to become more social but it's a lengthy process that I have to work on more. ;; Thank you very much!
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OFC!!! <333 i wish you luck on it all!!
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