Not fair (repost permanent incase anyone can help me dude)

It’s just not fair that I won’t live a normal comfortable life

I was diagnosed with Elhers Danlos from a really early age 

I had the afos, pt, the whole works

It’s been so long and nothing flared up 

Now it’s all going to shit I hate it so much I got an mri for my shoulder that randomly started seizing with pain without injury and found out it was just a progressive thing I can’t fix

The doctors laughed and compared me to an old lady

My parents joked about that too 

I hate that I’ll never get to know comfort I’m so violently jealous of everyone I never realized it 

I don’t often have a pronounced limp so no one really knows unless I tell them 

But it’s getting worse and I don’t want to get worse I want to be able to be free

It’s so unfair I get called lazy and dramatic while I want to get my shit together as much as everybody wants me to

I hate this and now I got pt again I just really fucking feel jealous idk if this shit will destroy me