I'm shocked but happy

I never thought I'd get any sort of clarity.

But now I have.

I feel so happy I might go insane. (Even though I'm not rlly expressing it well lol)

All the failed attempts were worth it. I'm glad they failed now. Because I could finally get that message and read it and take it in, even though I started crying. (Still having on and off tears /pos)

Im so happy.