datura as a key

hey guyzz!! :333

ive become rly obsessed w the idea of the higher truth. (read last blog post for reffz x33) i truly believe tht sum kind of enlightenment, probz of divine nature existz and tht ppl that we call mentally ill (with psychotic 'disorderz' specifically)  r chosen 2 see at least a bit of a maybe diff reality, mb a kind of rift in btwn realitiez, one of divine nature.

i have to get to the higher truth. ive been thinking of a few wayz: self induced psychosiz or lobotomy (il probz elaborate on lobotomy in a diff post.) i am afraid tho that if i do that by myself, if it doeznt come naturally, i will be punished instead of enlightened. i will try anywayz. i think i will get my handz on some datura seedz, probz grow the plant myself. i will post updatez on that. 

i will consume the seedz daily in small ammounts in order 2 replicate psychosis, at least try to.

wish me luck.

rawr xd