rambling

at some point i wanna move out but im currently in the period of a midlife crisis even tho im only 20. i tried going back to university twice so i could actually try functioning like a normal human being but even after coming back a 2nd time, i was still struggling to adjust so it just made things more stressful than it already was lol.

but while im in this midlife crisis phase i started playing video games again. ive been getting into hypixel's bedwars and ive been playing it a lot with a good friend of mine. its fun but its so scary bc the other teams tend to go aggro early game. :"D but i did have a few good wins with that friend !! so all that playing was for some dopamine. ive also been listening to a lot of music. i have a private playlist on spotify where i just put a bunch of my favs in one. but ive been overplaying that playlist lately so ive started listening to chill instrumentals.

i need to eat. i woke up at 9 am to help with chores and then i fell asleep up until like 3 pm. but for some reason im not hungry? idk i dont want to ramble too long in one blog bc i still wanna save my others thoughts for other days :]