Life Update

Hi, 

It's been forever since I've actually used this site. But I wanted to try it again after seeing a friend use it. I used to physically journal but that got to be annoying. Either way, I'm here now! So life update,, I have been feeling pretty isolated my whole life but when the school year starts back up I always feel worse. I don't know why I haven't been able to really make a bond. With others socially but It's something. I don't want to mull over anymore. I didn't have answers before and still don't now (I'm over it). The only thing interesting I can say is that my ex-bestfriend and my ex-boyfriend are dating. They really like each other which is good for them. It hurts more since he treats them well. And he never seemed that happy with me which makes me sad :(. Other than that point nothing much. Maybe I'm the bad one in this equation. I don't know neither of them talks to me for real anymore, but that's my life. Besides that, I have to finish my artist portfolio by November 1 I have no energy for art or anything really. I think my medications have gotten to me I don't feel anything and have no interest in anything it's hard on me. I have been working on getting my driver's license, and that's going fine (I'm too tired to even be anxious anymore) I don't have much going on. The last thing I can think to list is my terrible view of myself looking at me in the mirror I feel sick. I never feel pretty. I can't even wear a T-shirt without being uncomfortable...I want to live in a sack. Never have to leave bed and sleep forever. Hopefully next post will be longer!

Thanks for reading!