Day 3 Emotions, Relationships, Loneliness

ıdk what to say today. ı m depressed, ı feel so tired, ı  play genshin explore natlan all day. ıt s fun and HAPPY BİRTHDAY MİKU. ı write about miku yesterday if u re interested look Day 2. today ı talk about relationships ı cant say ı have no friend but ı feel like have no friend and ı have never had a lover in my life. ıf ı dont text first my friendships always ends except for a few people and this makes me feel lonenly and inadequate. my mind cant comprehend that someone else values me but ı want sometimes ı wanna die so people cares about me and ı want to be valuable to people ı want to feel wanted and to be missed but at the same time ı m scared bc ı think ı dont deserve ıt and intense emotions re not good for me ı wanna loved especially by girls ıdk girl s relationships so hard for me. ı feel so empty but same time ı feel so full of emotions ı couldnt show 

sorry for sad blog irl ı always act happy so people dont get tired of me. even now ı feel like ı m being selfish

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