alien child (entry 5)

When I was younger I was considered 'the weird kid' I never felt ashamed of it or anything I liked what I like, drawing, anime, collecting things (shells, certain rocks, stuffed animals) and songs people weren't so familiar with, certain shows..I'm not exactly sure what weird kid means but I don't see it as a weird thing, I was a good kid I didn't get into much trouble. 

But I was always like some kind of alien compared to other kids. Of course there's always someone, or a group who you can find home with though, I was happy to find home when I met my friends. 3rd grade was a special time for me, despite getting bullied, I had lots of fun with my friends. Honestly friends and my interests are the reason I'm so happy now! When I didn't feel like I fit in, or felt like home didn't exist or wasn't close they filled that. I hope that people who don't feel like that eventually find someone, or something that feels like home.  I promise you will eventually find that! Whether its an interest, or friend, or possibly romantic interest??

Now though I do feel like I haven't found my way home yet, I feel like I'm just making stops and on the way home I meet kind people who will be in my heart but its not home. You know that feeling when you're at home, but you don't feel like you're home? Thats how I feel but sometimes its more undefinable...like I feel empty more than anything or maybe its that my feelings are so loud I'm not quite sure what I feel. 

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Some ways I've found home are through my interests! One piece is honestly one of my biggest sources.. my favorite character or MOST (cant belive its not all) peoples favorite character is Luffy! I relate to him a lot, especially during marineford GAHJAHGFAHGJBA OK. I WILL ACTUALLY RAMBLE ABOUT THAT NEXT ENTRY OR IN BULLETINS BUT OH MYGOSH. ANYWAYANYWAY.. WAIT I CANT EVEN FINISH I NEED TO YAP I PROMISE ENTRY 6 I WILL TALK ABT ONE PIECE.