[08.29.24] KILLING MYSELF!!!!/j

> IM SO FREAKING MAD!!!!!! today was my school's like first football game, and marching band was supposed to play but it got canceled because it was thunderstorming!!!! I was so freaking excited to march our show and stuffs, because i feel like we worked really freaking hard. and its not like its getting rescheduled or anything, were just not gonna play the first show because my band teacher is out of town when they are planning to move the football game!!! ARGHGHGHGHGFHGHG/....,.,.,CFD 

> anyFREAKING way.,, besides that today was fine, I could not like focus through any of my classes bc I was thinking of band which sucksss because I have notes that I have to take but whateverrr,, we did get to march through our school's halls and play stand tunes and that was really fun!! though I kinda was a little bad at first bc I forgor and was confused but I caught up/. 

> I had an ASL presentation today, it was so bad.. we had to get into small groups of like five and sign to them stuff about us, and I got really nervous when I was presenting so I started to sign a little too fast and I had to repeat myself slower and I felt so embarrassed, also there was like a senior in my group and idk how to talk to almost-adults.

> umum yes and there's no school tmrw or Monday so I get a four day weekend yayayayayyyy!! I don't know if I'm doing anything on Friday or Saturday but I'm going to a mitski concert on Sunday with my friend and we're getting a hotel!! I'm so excited for that! and on monday I'm going roller skating with my two bestest friendies and my boyfriend HEHHEHAGHS.. shhhshhh/... I LOVE ROLLERSKATING!!! I may suck a little bit BUT I am getting better, I can kinda skate backwards now I just get scared that I'm gonna run into someone or go too fast, and I wanna learn how to shoot a duck bc its like one of the beginner tricksss. definitely gonna clean my room.. sometime.. but its a problem for future me!!! 

> yesterday I had a geometry quiz and I just know I did terrible.. not confident in myself at all because we literally just started, its the second week of school give me a break pls ;,(..  there's this really cool girl I wanna be friends with, and I got to hang out with her during PE!! but I forgot to bring shorts to change into and since I was wearing jeans I had to wear the freaking loaner shorts that are just a little bit too big on me so I look so freaking stupiddddd... there's also this other cool girl in my English class, and she'll like look over at me and smile and wave but not in a mean way that some people do, y'know? we were partners for one thing but I didn't really talk bc I got nervieeeeeous.. I hate that I'm not good at talking to new people anymore, up until like seventh grade I used to be so good at talking to people!! now I get really scared and think they're gonna like skin me or something if I say the wrong thing. Theres also this OTHER cool person that I wanna be friends with, when I went to comic con and cosplayed as Roxy lalonde from homestuck, I met this other person who was cosplaying Dave strider, and we like very briefly talked (my friend introduced me because I was too scared) and turns out they go to my school!! on the first day the complimented my invader Zim shirt, and I keep seeing them in the hallways passing by but I don't wanna talk to them because what if they think I'm like stalking them or something and they think I'm weird, I DONT KNOW!!!! and I'm not saying this to seem like, I'm so shyyy I'm so scared to talk to peopleee.. bc I'm usually not!! when I know someone I'm like really loud and annoying and even sometimes I'm good at talking to people i don't know but when I see really cool people I wanna be friends with I don't know how to talk anymore!! I hate it!!

> anyway kittilicious out hope yew enjoyed me rambling buhh!!! byebyeee!!!!